{Ministry Monday} But why???

But why??? I annoyed my parents with that question my entire childhood.  I still continue to be very inquisitive as an adult…especially when this world and the people in it get me so stinkin’ puzzled at times.  As I grow in my Christian walk, I have started to discover the answers to my questions keep pointing to–> Trust God.  This sounds easy, but it’s not… I continue to struggle with this thought: No matter the situation, God has a reason.  Life doesn’t come with an instruction manual, but God does…we just have to use it.

This is the first time a tragedy involving children has occured since I’ve been a mother.  I reacted so differently to this news.  I was physically sick.  I kept trying to understand everything by mentally putting myself in the situation.  What would I have done if it was my 5th grade Communication Arts class? What would I have done if it was my child? All of these questions poured from me… I know, I need to trust in Him… But in the moment of crisis, I failed.  As a Christian I should accept God’s will, not only for my life, but for others. I just could not even fathom why innocent little babies had to suffer…why delusional people are allowed to harm others…and soooo many more details.  What I kept coming back to is the truth that Luke 1:37 says, “For with God nothing shall be impossible.” THEN WHY DID GOD ALLOW THIS TO HAPPEN??????? There, I said it. I know that God has a reason. I know that God ALLOWS the Devil to do things… BUT WHY??? If God can do anything, why not stop this evil from happening?

Thanks to a Good Morning Girls post, I came across this article. God sent me this to shut my questions up. Please take the time to read this short excerpt from John Piper. It is not a feel good read…it is actually a slap in the face from God that we all need.

So what we saw [Dec. 14] in the Newtown murders was a picture of the seriousness of our own corruption. None of us escapes the charge of sinful anger and verbal venom. So we are all under the just sentence of God’s penalty. That is what Jesus was saying in Matthew 5:21–22.

And it is exactly what Jesus said again when people pressed him to talk about the time Pilate slaughtered worshippers in the temple. Instead of focusing on the slain or the slayer, he focused on all of us:

Which means that the murders of Newtown are a warning to me — and you. Not a warning to see our schools as defenseless, but to see our souls as depraved. To see our need for a Savior. To humble ourselves in repentance for the God-diminishing bitterness of our hearts. To turn to Christ in desperate need, and to treasure his forgiveness, his transforming, and his friendship.

Times like these can either make us push Christ away, or make us draw nearer to Him. I pray that we lose the anger, judgement, and resentment fueling our “but why-s” and start trusting God’s will for our lives. Please do not think that God did this, God does not perform evil… Satan does. If you are someone who has lost faith in humanity, here is my advice to you:  Not only will non-God fearing people make bad choices, but as a Christian, I will fail you. Even though Christians are followers of Christ, we are all human.  You will be hurt by one of us and I cringe even saying that.  I am sorry…but don’t let our decisions hinder your walk with the Lord. Don’t trust in man, trust in God! He will never fail you. There really is no way to prepare for a scary even such as what happened in Newtown.  All that we can do is prepare our hearts to be ready to call Heaven our home… I pray you are ready.

God Bless & Prayers to Newtown,


  1. December 17, 2012 / 7:23 pm

    I think it’s so easy to ask ‘why?’ and then I think there are times that if we knew the ‘why,’ we still wouldn’t be satisfied. Thanks for sharing the John Piper article. It is so true and speaks to the fact that none of us can uphold the whole law. God loves us enough to sacrifice His own son in order to have relationship with us! I am thankful for the hope I have in Christ Jesus’ return, knowing that there is a day when all the evil will be done!

  2. December 18, 2012 / 12:55 pm

    Thanks for sharing your heart and being transparent. I did ask the “but why”? He is a loving God, you are right God does not do evil, only satan does. This is a time where we need to drawer closer to Him, we need to trust Him more. We need to shine our lights.

    God Bless you!

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